Hello:)
My name is Diana Zamudio & I’m a Childhood Trauma Survivor.
I am much more than that, however Childhood trauma made many of my life experiences more difficult due to the constant triggers I felt from my repressed emotions surfacing. The results that manifested in my life from this dis-order made everything extra hard.
I’m also a mother of four, had a career in interior design, and at times looked like I achieved what I was “suppose to”, however being born into a dysfunctional home with sick parents caused me to not function in a healthy way.
I learned early on from my parents that it was most important on how things looked, while no importance was placed on how one felt, hence my diagnosis early on of “Clinical Depression”. Even though I had things looking pretty good at one time decades ago, I felt bad much of my life. I was put on maximum doses of antidepressants and the doctors said I’d need to be on them for life. I later discovered they were wrong. I tried to get off my medication at least ten times over the course of ten years and failed each and every time until I learned how to experience my repressed emotions from childhood.
Once I leaned how to feel my triggers without acting out (shutting down with depression), I was able to stop taking my antidepressants. Weaning off medication took a total of 2 years. Processing old emotions is not for the faint of heart, as it can often be a painful process, however, the gift from embarking on this path has been connecting with my true nature, as that’s what I’ve been able to do.
“To me there’s nothing more important than living from my authentic self.”
I continue to recover from the lasting effects of being raised in a dysfunctional home one day at a time. Dr. Patrick Arbore, my grief counselor, mentor and friend has worked with me since 2012 helping me to understand and untangle the confusion that was inflicted upon me by my dysfunctional upbringing. I’ve taken a passion to understanding the unhealthy dynamics that form between siblings, parents, friendships, and partners, as a result of being raised with childhood trauma. I’ve learned that until I began the process of healing from my past, I continued to behave in dysfunctional ways without even knowing it.
One of the worst things about childhood trauma was being disconnected from my true nature (true-self) as I had no idea this was the case. Once I hit an emotional bottom, being unable to perform and act as I was taught, I was able to begin the process of figuring out the truth. Being my authentic self when I was little was not safe, so I learned to pretend, making my life a false reality.
After all the emotional work I’ve done thus far,
“I’ve discovered my mission, my souls calling, is to help facilitate healing for childhood trauma survivors, so they too may re-connect with their true-selves.”
My main approach is to create safe spaces for people to express themselves while gaining awareness and clarity to the truth. Being witnessed and acknowledged by the other members of the group give us the validation we didn’t receive as children growing up. It’s this process that aids in our continual healing. Listening and sharing is a key part of getting in touch with our old emotions so we may consciously let them go. This process makes it possible to “FEEL” all that wasn’t felt in our homes growing up without acting out.